used to be.

2012-01-26T15:30:00.002+08:00

If you do not treat that girl right,

someone else would.

ALOHA!

I AM SO TIRED.

HAHHAHAHA.

i suck.

i went swimming.

I ONLY SWAM 8 laps.

EIGHT.

and i got a shoulder cramp

and my left arm is LIKE CRAMPED AND TWISTED AND ACHING.

omg.

i suck.

I RECALL when i was younger and fitter.....

i am going to swim often now.

i feel soooo lousy!

POO.

IM GONNA MEET JINGWEI LATER!

HEHEHEHEHHEHE.

AND

CANNOT

WAIT

FOR

USS.

*GIGGLEGIGGLEGIGGLEGIGGLEGIGGLEGIGGLEGIGGLEGIGGLEGIGGLEGIGGLE*

2012-01-25T14:58:00.002+08:00

With the objective of being happy.

our lives all so different,

yet still the same.

i lost an earring today.

AND I LOST MY IPOD.

and i had to search the wholeeee morning.

okay i had to search for like half an hour for my ipod.

and i finally RECALLED and found it in a bag which i used...

TEN THOUSAND YEARS AGO.

luckyyyyy me!

okay i am going to dance around now.

cause sitting in front of the computer for so long makes me feel USELESS.

AND I AM GOING SWIMMING TOMORROW.

YIPPPPPIIIIE!!!!!!!!!!!

2012-01-24T20:11:00.002+08:00

Suspense.

when we look to much into the future

we get scared. and we start to keep predicting.

AND WELL we arent all optimistic and positive

often is that we will be doubting.

doubting that anything good may happen.

but yeah the truth is that no one knows.

no one knows what may happen,

what can happen.

and what will happen.

so lets just try.

2012-01-23T21:06:00.001+08:00

HAPPIE CHINESE NEW YEAR!:)
today we slept till AFTERNOON.
then went to granny's.
but omgzxzx it's really quite boring........
SO I CANNOT WAIT FOR USS.
hehehehe:)

peanut is in raincoat
READY FOR THE WATER DRAGON
RAWWWWWWRRRR.

2012-01-21T17:28:00.003+08:00

Insecurities.

everyone have fears.

fear of the dark, heights, animals.

fear of not being good enough,replaced, forgotten.

fear of losing, regretting,

loneliness.

when people start to drift.

they stopped talking all together.

feelings start to fade.

bonds weaken.

before you know it.

everything has changed.

and well,

its too late.

NEVER EVER LET THAT HAPPEN.

its way too scary to lose a person who makes you happy.

(TOMORROW'S MUMMY BIRTHDAY:D!.

YAY!)

2012-01-18T19:45:00.001+08:00

Worth your time.

i spent my whole day floating around the house.

and thinking of what to get for mummy.

and where i should go to get it.

BUT IN THE END IM TOO LAZY.

AND MY FEET SUPER PAIN.

SHO STUPIDZXLY,

i didnt go out.

(omg its the shape of a triangle.)

tomorrow morning theres hands on day and im quite excited:D

then we go change daddy's cast.

i gonna FORCE him to change it to pink.

HEHEHE.

I HAVE MADE EXTREME PLANS.

THEN WE GOING DINNER WITH JINGWEI.

YYYEEEESSSSSSSS.

I AM VERY HAPPY.

HAPPY.

HAPPY:D!

i dont think i can sleep tonight.

HAHAHAHHA.

2012-01-17T10:30:00.004+08:00

Safe and Sound

just close your eyes

the sun is going down

you'll be alright

no one can hurt you now

come morning light

you and I'll be safe and sound

2012-01-15T22:08:00.002+08:00

Underneath your heart.

I'm so tired of being ignored

so i just gave up all together.

but maybe you could think a little.

think a little of how i would feel.

because i can try.

i can try my hardest.

but if you are just going to turn your back.

and disregard me.

i don't see the reason why i should.

i have a tiny heart.

and maybe someday we would meet again.

like a COMEBACK.

hahahaha.

neverrrrrr give up some things.

because opportunity may only knock ONCE.

today will still be a happy day.

i will choose to remember smiley stuff.

hehehe:D

2012-01-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

An option.

if you treat someone as an option.

they would find out,

AND THEY WOULD KNOW.

what a feeling.

dance was very fun today.

but today doesn't feel good.

HEH.

TOMORROW.

MUST.

BE.

BETTER.

*cross fingers and toes*

2012-01-13T18:26:00.002+08:00

No one had dreams as big as yours.

after THREEEE days of full days.

OF WORK.

im beatttt.

BUT ANYWAYZXZXZX.

sister's doing dinner today.

AND IM HAPPY:D

and i got lots of food to eat from giant.

and there's dance tomorrow!

hehehehe.

im quite excited:D!

and next up is universal studios.

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2012-01-10T00:20:00.001+08:00

for once I have really made my parents proud.
*i hope.
today the most crazy thing happened to me.
AND EVERYTHING FEELS TOO MUCH LIKE A DREAM.
I am thankful to have my friends and family and of course jingwei around.
I think I may have died without anyone of them.
I guess it's not a BIG thing. but this has made me realise, how much everyone cares for me.
thank you god for making my life so wonderful. and that I am so loved.
for anything that happens there would be a positive way to look at it.
now it's that IM LOVED.

p.s. thank you jingwei.

2012-01-07T22:46:00.002+08:00

Wait up for happiness.

i am sooo happy i can dance again!

i have found my soul.

and my muscles and bones.

FOR THEY WERE DEAD WHILE I WAS NOT DANCING.

but now my whole body hurts.

uhhhhhhh ):

and i watched this video.

AND THE GUY SAID.

"if everyone looked like stars in movies,

then every girl will look alike.

and everyone would look like barbie dolls.

You are special because of your difference."

okay something like that.

he looked young.

it is very surprising.

and heartening.

he would be a great man.

as monday comes closer and closer

its so frightening.

and i wonder if everyone could feel the fear creeping.

i am going to pretend monday is coming next year.

GOODBYE.

2012-01-06T19:25:00.003+08:00

I hope you find what you're looking for,

because dear you look so lost.

not like anyone i have known before.

i'm beginning to question a lot.

i guess we should be open to anything that comes along.

thats how we can experience everything fully.

pain or joy.

THE FIRST WEEK OF THE YEAR HASN'T BEEN REALLY GREAT.

THINGS WILL BE BETTER

if the world is going to end this year.

please end before monday.

anyway its doomsday on monday.

*shiveerrrrr*

2012-01-01T23:23:00.003+08:00

ZOOOOOOM.

2011-12-31T23:55:00.001+08:00

I am happy.

Happy 2011everyone:D

let next year be a lovely year too.

2011-12-31T13:08:00.001+08:00

the right guy would praise you infront of other girls.
not praise about other girls to you.
so when you realise that things are not the way it should be.
he's not the one.

who says you're not perfect?

2011-12-29T22:15:00.001+08:00

Predetermined.
Fate.
Destiny.
nothing you do will stop it.
nothing you do will change any of it.
and so I still believe to a certain extent.
what will be will be.

2011-12-27T16:33:00.002+08:00

Fragile

Today i have realised how fragile life is.

one moment you see me.

the next day anything can happen.

anything.

things can happen without any reason.

anyone can die anytime for any reason.

treasure,

every single person you love.

you never know when you would lose them.

2011-12-18T09:54:00.002+08:00

Fighting dragons with you.

HELLO.

life is turning for the better!

but i hope dance and everything will turn out okay.

OKAY.

everyone!

merry christmas!

jingwei enjoy your holiday!

will misssssa you!

2011-12-14T23:05:00.001+08:00

Time is of essence

TODAY.

SG.

MOVED NEXT DOOR.

OHHHHHHHHHHHMYYYOOOOLALA!

L.O.L.

i'm suchaaaa ass. LOL.

2011-12-13T21:46:00.001+08:00

TODAY I WAS A STUNMAN.
(like peanut in the picture!)

I had to climb this ladder (to check stocks)
but it was so squeezy! LIKE SERIOUSLY, LUCKY IM SLIM. like I think any bit of me was bigger I couldn't enter "the hole".
I swear it was so scary. the ladder was just leaning on the UNSTABLE SHELF. like huh!!!! and then when I finally reached the "TOP", I had to twist sideways HOLDING ON TO NOTHIng. okay lucky I dance. cause my back was almost going to
cramp after twisting for so
long. OMG.
I think I can join the circus now.
I CAN STAND ON A PIECE OF SWAYING METAL WRITING NUMBERS IN THE AIR.
OH CIRCUS HERE I COME. HAHAHAHHA!
*stocking kills.

2011-12-11T23:12:00.004+08:00

Stars.

I WENT TO SNSD's CONCERT WITH JINGWEI AND HER SISTERS,

and her cousins yesterday:D

the girls areee soooo good.

i wonder what it is like to be them.

and i realllllllllyyyyyy like taeyeon:D.

HEHEHE.

anyway i guess i'm really lucky to be able to go for the concert!

THANKS TO JINGWEI'S SISTER:D.

they're really amazing.

<3.

work is getting a teeeenyyyy bit tiring.

BESIDES ALL THE CLUMSY THINGS..

i usually do.

for now i think the worst i did was not checking the receipt properly...

AND GIVING THE CUSTOMER A FAILED TRANSACTION RECEIPT.

omg.

i suck.

okay.

besides that the rest is not soooo bad.

but its mafan to travel from home there.

anyway i'm going china soon.

kindof sucks,

I HEARD THERES NO WIFI.

maybe the toilets have no doors.

:X.

*cross fingers and toes*

2011-12-06T22:05:00.003+08:00

THOMAS IS MY NEW BEST FRIEND.

HAHAHAHAHHA.

JINGWEI.

I HOPE YOU SEE THIS.

THOMAS IS MY NEW BEST FRIEND.

CHOOOCHOOOO!

2011-12-05T11:47:00.002+08:00

I AM A BIG GIRL.

and big girls don't cry.

*ah just joking!

WE GOT THE JOB AND TODAY IS MY FIRST DAY!

:D:D:D

i'm supurrbbbbbb excited.

ALL THE BEST TO YOU TOO JINGWEI! hahahahah.

we're big girls!

2011-12-02T18:28:00.002+08:00

We are growing up.

A day may seem normal to you,

but it could be extremely special to someone else.

and because we should all live for the special day of ours.

don't give life up.

after struggling for soooo long,

finally we're almost there.

I CAN SEE THE SMALL RAY OF LIGHT.

at the end of this long and rough and dark tunnel.

*EEEEEEEEEEEI"MNONSENSE*

and even if we go different ways in life

I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU!

LOL.

and i hope we get to see SG.

*HEHEHE YOU HAVEN'T THOUGHT OF THIS RIGHT*

LOVE YOU. STAY STRONG.

I've started talking to a new friend!

its always fun to have a new friend:D

actually its not really new.

like we haven't talked for 3 years.

AND LIKE JUST COINCIDENTALLY MEETING MADE US FRIENDS AGAIN!

what a small world(:

2011-12-01T18:00:00.001+08:00

I WON A PAIR IF SLIPPERS!!!!
I AM SOOOOOOO HAPPY.
I've never had enough money to get a pair.
I need a job soon.
gah.
life give you a thing and takes away another. :(
anyway I went for a jab today.
it's crazy pain:( I don't
like needles!

2011-11-30T17:03:00.003+08:00

The one that got away.

I PRAYYYYYY WITH THE WHOLE OF MY HEART.

THAT MELLISA TEXTS US TODAY.

OR WHATEVER.

JUST PLEASE TELL US.

its sucks to be hanging around.

pleasepleaseplease.

why is the whole world able to get a job except us.

UHHH.

ANYWAY.

i have some stuff to do to keep be still busy and going FOR TODAY.

PLEASE GOD.

ONCE.

LET LIFE BE FAIR TO US.

2011-11-28T00:00:00.002+08:00

Happy Ending.

TODAY

i came back from some runaway at Malaysia.

AND I'M VERY HAPPY.

i received my ear-rings i bought online!

ITS A PIGGYYYY!!!

ooooooooooooooooo piggy!

AND!

I BOUGHT NEW DRESSES.

HEHEHEHEHE.

NEXT.

JINGWEI AND I ARE SELECTED FROM THE AUDITION.

OMGGGGG!

WE'RE GONNA DANCE AGAIN.

ON A BIGGER STAGE.

WITH MORE PEOPLE.

dancing and watching!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

LASTLY!

jingwei and i ARE GOING FOR THE INTERVIEW TOMORROW.

i cannot wait to start work.

and

i want to be happy.

2011-11-25T23:29:00.000+08:00

2011-11-25T00:01:00.000+08:00

Begin again.

i've understood so much more.

i came to realise some things.

it's been a long while

since i've figured out.

i've grown.

*JINGWEI, I WILL MISS YOU.

see you soon(:

2011-11-23T21:44:00.002+08:00

All of everything.

WENT GUITAR HERO-ING at yisheng's place today!:D

and, we played some sports thinggy.

ITS LIKE WII.

but omg

my arms so pain nowww.

i wonder when we would gather again.

i hope we would stay as close friends(:

2011-11-21T22:38:00.003+08:00

Embrace kindness.

what rights do we have to hurt another person?

were we never wrong?

haven't we been told,

forgive and forget.

2011-11-20T21:26:00.002+08:00

We said the big night

AHHHHHHHH hahaha,

it was fantastic fabulous fun!

HAHAHA!

i am very happpyyy to have great friends(:

and yeah.

i think.

its time.

2011-11-18T12:09:00.003+08:00

那些年错过的爱情

THIS IS THE NICEST MOVIE EVER.

i'm not a fan of chinese.

but this story hits everyone.

it questions,

how far you would go.

i think most importantly it shakes you

and reminds you that you should never miss chances.

sometimes things may not wait.

anyway,

its a great movie!

amazing storyline(:

2011-11-15T23:36:00.002+08:00

Can't you see?

Still framed photograph
Of you and me together
Is all I have of me and you
Anymore
We were so in love and
We thought it would last forever

But in the storms
We were torn

And I won't forget you
I don't regret you
And the hardest thing I find to do
Is to live without you
And I wonder why
We both walked away
I'm lost without you
Still crazy for you
Just turn around come back
Because your smile is overdue
And I miss

I miss you

If I only knew the words to say
That would make you turn around
I would say those words to you
More than a million times
It's been forever but that hasn't changed
What you mean to me
And darling can't you see?

That I won't forget you
I don't regret you
And the hardest thing i find to do

Is to live without you
And I wonder why we both walked away
I'm lost without you
Still crazy for you
Just turn around come back
Because your smile is overdue
And I miss

I miss you

I'm sorry for all I did
All I said
And
The things I hid
I'm finally over me
Is that too late for you?
I can't imagine where I'd be
If you had never rescued me
You gave me hope today

And i need you

I need you

And I won't forget you
I don't regret you
And the hardest thing I find to do

Is to live without you
And I wonder why
We both walked away
I'm lost without you
Still crazy for you
Just turn around come back
Because your smile is overdue
And I miss

I miss you

2011-11-14T22:25:00.003+08:00

What if.

everything's over.

HELLO LIFEEE,

immaaa back!

2011-11-11T18:32:00.005+08:00

BECAUSE TODAY IS 11/11/11.

*although its not realllllyyyy special.

BUT IT STILL IS!

because not in a hundred year will this happen.

and it's great i'm now alive. LOL.

WE SHOULD ALL BE THANKFUL FOR ALL WE HAVE TODAY(:

although they will never stop nagging.

*still going on.

i guess thats what parents are for.

:X. ANYWAY,

its incredible sometimes how they could understand you.

how they would comfort.

protect.

and encourage you.

WELL.

SISTER IS a litttlleeee rude and sometimes not understanding.

but i believe as she grows older

and i hope as she follows me she would change.

but she cares for me. *AHHHHHHHHH* HAHA.

thankful,

definitely.

I think there's confusion.

I think there's uncertainty of how best friends should be.

OR maybe also friends.

well anyway,

TO THE HOTTTESSSTTTT WOMAN ON EARTH.

it is amazing how far we have come.

facing almost anything!

AH, LIKE WARRIORS.

although you are always the one holding the shield and sword

*WHILE I AM THE ONE WHO CARRIES THE WATER AND TOWEL FOR YOU*

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH!

i know that although you are strong and defensive

ITS THE protective instinct of yours that saves me.

and all the time i am happy.

because i know when i'm with you i won't be made use of.

SEE, NOW YOU KNOW WHY I'M MOST BIMBO WHEN I'M WITH YOU:D.

it is crazy how you can understand people and

LIKE I AM SORRY LIKE REALLY SORRY IF SOMETIMES I DON'T UNDERSTAND YOU.

but i will listen! *OPEN MY EYES BIGBIG* :D

THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING HERE AND THERE AND EVERYYYYWHERE!!!!

hehehehehehe!

I WISH EVERYONE WOULD BE HAPPY.

AND HEALTHY OF COURSE. (:

2011-11-08T21:12:00.002+08:00

Strong or weak.

i'mmmmm sooo tired.

haven't been able to sleep well these few days.

yesterday i did yoga

JUST SO I HOPE I COULD SLEEP BETTERRRR.

BUT FAILED.

anddd naooooo i have fever.

and i heard you have been sick for a long time.

get well soonnnn(:

2011-11-04T19:19:00.002+08:00

Where's comfort when you need it the most?

we sure all know we should forgive and forget.

but what are the limits.

is there any?

anger.

a normal reaction to ill treatment.

but how rarely am i ever angry?

and so now,

should i be?

fear.

it's a distressing emotion.

but it would be weird to be afraid

of things you have never done.

its complicated.

and i really don't know what i'm suppose to feel too.

and hello loved one,

how are you doing?(:

i hope tomorrow will be a better day for you.

as much as i hope mine would be too.

i miss you.

2011-11-03T22:46:00.002+08:00

this is too much to bear.
I miss you.

2011-10-04T19:45:00.002+08:00

Living inside the box.

I'M TIRED OF STUDYING.

urggghhh.

2 more weeks.

AND

A FEW MORE WEEKS.

AND

ITS OVER.

ahhhh,

hang on.

2011-09-28T21:12:00.001+08:00

Life is Beautiful.

2011-09-25T22:41:00.002+08:00

I think days that fall on this date
sends a trigger to my mind.
because just last night again,
I dreamt of you.

but I believe
time'll heal wounds.

2011-09-24T22:38:00.003+08:00

Forever young.

I'M EXHAUSTED.

i cannot sleep at night again,

i think i think too much at night.

i'm tired.

i hope i would get to watch johnny english reborn

before O's.

its been a long time before i went to the movies.

QUITE EXCITED. :D!

2011-09-17T23:01:00.003+08:00

Pause.

you don't have to be nice to people who are nice to you.

but at least don't be mean.

after all they have once tried to help you.

once listened to you.

once talked to you.

once was your friend.

so really,

no matter what really happened.

or happens.

Once.

Some time ago,

that person was someone you were thankful to have had.

Don't just live in the present

because the past means as much.

sometimes it scares me

that so much has changed.

2011-09-16T23:03:00.001+08:00

Who said that we can't lie to a person we love.

It may have hurt.

But it could have hurt more.

2011-09-15T18:33:00.003+08:00

Giving.

Miss Heng shared this story with us today.

she is so amazing.

today is her last day with us.

it is so depressing.

but you know,

when life throws you lemons.

you make lemon juice(:

maybe its also good for her.

she should not be teaching people who do not appreciate her.

i would miss her(:

she will not be forgotten.

2011-09-13T19:44:00.002+08:00

But no, thats not a complain.

dear blog.

for now you're my only listener.

i do not wish to disturb the rest,

they are far too busy.

my stomach hurts like its going to explode.

its killing me.

k.i.l.l.i.n.g m.e.

my back is so stiff

and it feels like my muscles are stuck to the bone.

every action that moves a muscle of my back hurts.

i have to crouch while i walk.

its like i would melt into the floor.

so i have to hold on to the walls along.

it hurts so.

begone soon.

*i think its because today is the 13th. ):

2011-09-11T20:31:00.003+08:00

Treasure.

people.

relationships

and everything around you.

we all miss people whom are no longer around

or no longer with us.

its the feeling that creeps within us.

most of us cannot control it.

sometimes we dream about what we miss.

but when we wake up

and realise our empty hands

and hollow hearts.

the longing for something,

or someone to be there is

unbearable.

*p.s i lost $10 daddy gave me today ):

i think i dropped it accidentally.

i don't dare to tell daddy and mummy.

now i have to return the $10 to them with my money.

ah, i hope someone who needs the $10 picks it up.

2011-09-10T22:17:00.002+08:00

This time.

i'm going to do it my way.

i'm finding out the hard way.

i'm going to go back to the girl i was,

the night you found me.

ambitions.

dreams.

goals.

our life.

is it planned or are you leaving it the hands of fate.

when would we awake from our bubbly dream

that things would fall in place.

stop dreaming.

i've learnt that.

well, sometimes things can be left for fate to decide.

small things.

not your dreams.

not your life.

chase wonders and don't let go

until you are really happy.

happy in the inside about yourself.

about being you.

2011-09-09T18:16:00.002+08:00

OHHOWCANI.

yesterday this homeless woman approached jingwei and i.

she needed money.

whatever,

cheated or not.

it shouldn't mean so much.

money is not everything.

money cannot replace tenderness.

Today a man talked to me on the bus.

nono not money.

HE STARTED TEACHING ME MATHS.

using my book!

HAH.

he was not scary

but it was a bit frightening.

i dont know why.

everytime a stranger talks to me.

I THINK they're going to kipnap me.

OR like

UH, do something bad to me.

sometimes i hate the world

and i hate those people who have made us

unable to differentiate the good and the bad.

it's all so cloudy.

people lie and kill to fulfill their desires.

what a world it has become.

2011-09-06T22:03:00.005+08:00

Today, for the first time,

i was eating alone.

well, it was an experience.

the pasa malam's back!

and so i had honey chicken chop.

oooooooooooomgsoooooooilyyyy.

evoked.

it tastes all the same.

the only difference would be the plastic bag.

*it was red the last time,now it's yellow:D

i couldn't finish it, it's a habit.

after all it was always meant to be shared.

And it was too spicy.

that was when i remembered i didn't have water.

ahhhh,

evoked.

it's still my favorite though(:

today i have decided on your birthday present.

i wanted it to be meaningful.

I found it.

2011-09-02T22:00:00.002+08:00

Darling where were you.

today.

i encountered some MIC bian tai.

sucks.

I FEEL SO MOLESTED WITHIN.

why the hell do they exist.

its okay that i'm alone.

i'll take up some karate or boxing.

you BT, would be a pulp.

2011-09-01T23:56:00.003+08:00

Incredible.

i was amazed by how i felt.

like deep inside.

something had probably melt.

i hope i'm as strong as you.

to all teachers on the world.

to all that teach and impart any type of skills to others.

Happy teacher's day(:

2011-08-30T22:54:00.003+08:00

Ah, we forgot you, happy.

i'm so tired.

This will pass.

Before i know it,

it would pass.

I'm afraid to lose you.

even when you're not mine.

Possessive, Ignorant, Selfish.

Me.

But were we all born like that.

Isn't everyone the same?

It's just that some show it,

some keep it to themselves.

We are the same.

Humans.

2011-08-28T22:28:00.002+08:00

I want you forever.

Forever and always,
Through the good and the bad and the ugly.
We'll grow old together,
But always remember,
Whether happy or sad or whatever
We still love each other
Forever and always.

2011-08-27T23:45:00.003+08:00

Warned a thousand times.

As i felt you would wait a thousand days.

Today is the presidential election.

I HAVE BEEN WAITING SINCE 10 FOR THE NEWS.

no news.

==.

and i really like President SR Nathan.(:

i don't know him personally.

but i remember when i was in primary 2

and i went to the sick bay in the General Office

i saw his picture as well as his wife's.

it was so weird because he was not my principal.

but he looked too nice, and not fierce like the other teacehers..

hehe:D.

I am glad i live in Singapore.

President Nathan said: "Emotional? No. I was ready for it. Since I announced it, some time has taken place so there's nothing to be emotional about. The sun will rise, the sun will set, I will still see you."

2011-08-26T22:07:00.002+08:00

If it hurts, then you were in love.

GAHHHHHHH.

ITS THE END OF PRELIMS.

2 more monthssss.

and i'm going to work.

and VOLUNTEER.

AND CELEBRATE BEING A TEENAGER.

instead of sulking and

wondering why life is such a bore.

Because i say life is

beautiful.

2011-08-25T14:16:00.001+08:00

I've heard that you're settled down.
That you've found a girl
And you're married now.

I've heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things,
I couldn't give to you.

2011-08-19T22:17:00.004+08:00

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Everyone needs compassion,

A love thats never failing.

2011-08-18T21:25:00.002+08:00

Success.

It's sweet.

Today i've got back my Chinese O' levels results.

Happy.

Satisfied.

Hard work paid off.

NOW I'M GONNAAAA PUSH FOR THE REST.

because if i can do it for CHINESE.

AND BECAUSE I PROVE TO MYSELF I CAN.

I WILL NOT LET MYSELF DOWN.

cause i wanna HUG JINGWEI AGAIN.

the next time tighter and happier.

scream louder.

jump higher.

RAHHHHHHHHH! :D

2011-08-16T21:07:00.002+08:00

Amaranthine; Unfading

hooooooooooooho.

its so tiring.

AND I ALMOST GOT BANGED DOWN BY A BICYCLE.

CAUSE RIGHT.

i came down the bus then this bicycle ZOOMMMM PAST.

omg.

its amazing i'mma alive.

haha.

imy.

2011-08-15T22:20:00.002+08:00

13 years was long

and what supposed to be an adventure,

now a blurred vision.

A scary sight.

2011-08-12T22:12:00.003+08:00

Buckle up.

HAHAHA.

TODAY TUITION WAS SO FUNNYXZ.

we were doing light.

SO weyhau asked me

what was the difference between florescent filament blubs .

I LOOKED UP AND STARED AT MY LIGHTBULB FOR A WHILE.

and then i knew the answer!

so i looked at weyhau going to answer

AND THEN I WAS BLIND.

SO I SAID, "I CANNOT SEE YOU!"

AND HE LAUGH AT ME.

HAHAHAHHAHA.

THEN,

he was explaining to me about magnets.

APPARENTLY, i look like i was listening.

THEN HE SAID

"Like poles of the magnet attract."

me: *nods head*

he: *quiet*

me: *nods head again*

he: "are you sleeping?! like poles attract ah?!"

me: *SHAKE HEAD AND LAUGH* "REPEL REPEL!"

he: "you must be sleeping.."

LASTLY RIGHT.

*i was so tired i really think i was sleeping.*

he was explaining something.

FOR VERY LONG.

i think about D.C and alternating circuit or something.

then he was like :"okay you know?"

me: "ya.."

he: "okay, write"

me:"UHHHHHHHHHH... HUHHHHH."

he: ==

me:" HAHAHAHAHHHAHA!"

okay.

i'm so tired,

i'm just going to faint and die on the chair now.

bye.

*plop*

hehehehe!

2011-08-10T21:06:00.002+08:00

Love how are you?

DADDY TOLD ME

COMMANDOS ARE MORE BUFF THAN NAVY.

:X.

LOL.

INCREDIBLY I GOT BACK MY

IPHONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

now i can tiny tower or something:D!

HOHO.

2011-08-09T20:25:00.002+08:00

家

Rumah

வீடு

Where would you go to seek comfort?

Where would you feel the warm hearts of others?

Where have you lived your whole life?

As such a young nation we rise.

We rise to be greater and stronger on our own.

We rose to show the world.

Why do we still complain?

Is it not safe enough?

Do we have not enough food?

Do we have no shelter?

Have we ever wondered how many people out there wished they were us.

It is not easy now.

but at least we are taken care of.

we are not left alone.

This is our home where we belong.

2011-08-08T21:30:00.002+08:00

Before i could fall again i was pulled back up.

HELLO JINGWEI:D.

THANK YOU FOR CHANGING MY DOGGIES LIFE TODAY.

hohoho.

now she gets to go out:D!

i feelll so HAPPYYYY.

What time is it where you are?
I miss you more than anything
Back at home you feel so far
Waitin' for the phone to ring
It's gettin’ lonely livin’ upside down
I don't even wanna be in this town
Tryin' to figure out the time zones makin' me crazy

You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head

Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
It's drivin me mad
I miss you so bad
and my heart heart heart is so jetlagged

What time is it where you are?
I keep your picture in my car
I hate the thought of you alone
I've been keepin' busy all the time
Just to try to keep you off my mind
Tryin' to figure out the time zones makin’ me crazy

Turn the hour hand back to when you were holding me.

2011-08-07T22:32:00.003+08:00

If you could read my mind you would be in tears

HELLO WORLD.

i had maths tuition today(:

i am glad i have improved.

I CAN FEEL MYSELF.

okay, i shall not be over confident.

i hope to get great results for my O levels.

So i can run to jingwei and HUG HER.

AND JUMP AROUND.

AND SCREAM.

AND CALL MUMMY AND DADDY.

AND SCREAM AGAIN.

AND CALL AH GONG AND AH MA.

AND SCREAMMMMMMMM.

AND GO OUT.

PLAY AND REALLY ENJOY MYSELF.

AND THEN,

GET HOME.

LOOK IN THE MIRROR.

STARE.

AND SAY

GOOD JOB JIAYAN.

YOU'VE DONE IT.

AND SMILE WHILE SLEEPING.

HEEEEHEEEEEEE.

okay,

work now then:D.

2011-08-05T23:06:00.002+08:00

But i wish you were here.

I was at the old place.

The same place.

Where we sat, joked and talked.

Where we smiled, laughed and cried.

The old place.

Where the wind would blow

the dust into my eye.

Where mosquitoes would bite me

and i start to complain and sigh.

And you'd sooth me.

You would.

keep holding on.

2011-08-04T21:20:00.002+08:00

Yes you can.

ITS NOW MAD RUSH TIME FOR D&T.

AH,

I'm gonna dream about it and it would be done.

*AH, DREAM ON.

2011-07-30T23:25:00.002+08:00

Anything we've forgotten.

2011-07-29T22:08:00.002+08:00

Chances.

An opportunity.

Another attempt.

To not make the same mistakes.

To change.

To make everything better.

Don't take chances for granted.

Chances don't come free.

They come with people's feelings.

Sacrifices for your,

Second chance.

Another try.

Even the strongest people

are not able to give

uncountable chances.

So dear,

when you get one.

Hold tight.

Try your hardest.

Because not everyone

would be willing to give you that

Second chance,

and we would only live our life Once.

2011-07-25T18:52:00.002+08:00

It's okay to remember.

HELLO(:

i dreamt of you(:

missing someone you cannot have is the same as

missing a loved one who has passed away.

memories would keep you awake.

2011-07-22T21:22:00.002+08:00

My stomach's knotted.

I swear it is.

2011-07-21T20:15:00.002+08:00

So, i guess its okay.

Sometimes it hurts to know you are not the best.

Not better.

Not intelligent.

That's life.

Comparable.

Sometimes it hurts to know you're inferior.

Not as pretty.

Not as interesting.

But it's okay,

thats life.

Comparable.

Sometimes it hurts to be disregarded.

Not cared for,

Not noticed.

Ah,

thats life.

Comparable.

Sometimes it hurts to know you're comparable.

It's okay,

i guess thats life.

2011-07-20T18:55:00.002+08:00

You had a lot of crooks,

tryin' to steal your heart.

Couldn't really figure out how to love,

how to love.

you had a lot of moments that didn't last forever,

now you in a corner trying to put it together.

How to love,

how to love.

2011-07-18T18:27:00.002+08:00

Happiness.

Its sad how we cannot hug shadows,

but won't we just be satisfied with what we have now.

and hug even tighter.

2011-07-15T18:54:00.003+08:00

You should be here dear.

TODAY IS A BAD DAY.

i had durian poisoning.

and didnt go to school.

but i went for tutorial!

and when i went into class everyone was like,

"JIAYANNNNNNNNNNNNN!"

ohman.

i feel so loved.

thankssss guysssss(:

i'm so happy in my class.

today is a funny day,

i waited for jingwei and didnt know she went home.

BUT she already told me she didnt have tutorial!

*LAUGH AT MYSELF.

HAHAHHAHA.

i have physics tuition later.

OHMAN.

BUT ANYWAYZX.

it'll be good.

2011-07-14T19:30:00.001+08:00

And fall.

and fall.

2011-07-13T21:28:00.001+08:00

Rings

courage

When tomorrow starts without me,

and I’m not there to comfort you,

please know that I still love you,

cause I know you love me too.

when tomorrow starts without me.

2011-07-10T19:54:00.002+08:00

Shalalalala.

I'M SO GLAD JINGWEI IS HAPPY WITH HER BIRTDHAY(:

anyway its so weird nobody's online today.

is it a special day?

are we suppose to celebrate something??

HAHA.

the sky was pink just now.

I SAID it was cause the earth was dying.

JINGWEI said it was for us to make a wish.

HEH.

NOT BAD.

I'M TIRED.

GONNA SLEEP EARLY TODAY(:

it will be the same.

2011-07-07T21:57:00.003+08:00

The only one i dream about, endlessly.

2011-07-06T22:33:00.002+08:00

Feelings, come back again.

and again.

It'll hunt us down.

2011-07-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

Dream.

I want to go to a place, few people know about.

I want to have a house near my family.

I want to have my bestfriend with me till i grow old.

I want to have a great boyfriend, who would love me.

I want my sister and i to be happily married.

I want to sky jump, take a hot air balloon, bungee jump with my husband.

I want to have 2 kids, 1 boy, 1 girl.

I want my children to be happy.

I want my life, not to go to a waste.

It'll be okay when i leave,

for I've dreamed.

2011-07-01T20:07:00.002+08:00

It does look difficult.

But dear,

don't just stand and stare.

Be brave.

Take the first step.

Even if you fall you will only end up with scratches.

which will remind you not to take that wrong step again.

TODAY WAS KRO:D

I CLEVERLY THOUGHT I SHOULD MAKE THE BEST OUT OF EVERYTHING.

SO I FOLDED UP MY SLEEVES AND SUNTANNED.

AND WHEN THERES NO SUN.

I ENJOY THE BREEZE.

and.

i stupidly got sunburnt.

UH.

AHHH.

it was fun anyway:D! HAHAHA.

2011-06-19T21:39:00.002+08:00

Sounds like it.

"How are you?"

"How's life?"

"Are you happy?"

I think you are(:

2011-06-18T22:15:00.002+08:00

Somebody.

HELLO JIAYAN.

LOL.

tomorrow's daddy day!

i was wondering if i should wear the long skirt.

or the dress.

Ah. mafan.

ANYWAY,

i've just remembered this.

i'll post it so i wont forget in future. LOL.

I'm going to name my daughter Ariel,

son Ethan:D!

Daughter will go for dance and ice-skating class..

maybe piano also:D.

Son will go for soccer, and ice-skating.

HAHA.

AND.. LIKE PIANO ALSO I GUESS. or guitar..

i hope my daughter would like to dance.

i hope she'll fulfill dreams which i had but cannot.

HAHA.

I am so bored.

OHHHH.

i've realised a blue black on my leg. LOL.

how did it get there?

whatever.

i'm so bored.

DEAR BLOG YOU SHOULD BE GONE.

2011-06-15T23:11:00.002+08:00

I Believe.

I believe that the sun shines after the rain

I believe if you don't get hurt you'll never gain

I believe in not doing things the easy way

I believe that being selfish doesn’t pay

I believe in a second chance

I believe in a life long romance

I believe there is life after death

And standing up to a life of mess

I believe in love at first sight

I believe that revenge isn’t right

I believe that first impressions last

And there is nothing better then a good laugh

I believe that dreams do come true

I believe there's destiny for me and you

I believe that good things come to those who wait

I believe love never arrives too late

I believe something good comes from something bad

I believe that for tears of happiness there are tears of sad

I believe everyone has a guardian angel

And the good you do will be rewarded well

I believe sometimes there is no explanation

I believe money can't buy people's affection

I believe you don't know what you've got until it's gone

I believe a new day arrives with every dawn

I believe a smile can be contagious

I believe in being very outrageous

I believe in living with no regrets

I believe that life is as good as it gets

I believe that God watches over us

I believe the little things are worth the fuss

I believe you have each friend for a reason

I believe you will get punished for treason

I believe that what comes first is family

I believe we should all live in harmony

I believe in making the most of a beautiful day

And it's not the end until everything's okay

I believe absence makes the heart grow fonder

I believe you will lose if you sit and wonder

I believe every experience teaches you a lesson

And nothing cures better then a drinking session

I believe everyone has one true love

I believe sometimes we need a little shove

I believe the whole world is a stage

I believe we only get better with age

I believe that to learn you have to live

I believe that to love someone you have to give

I believe one moment can change your life

And there's still help when you’re in strife

I believe everyone has one true friend

I believe love helps a broken heart mend

I believe in the power of a song

And things will change before too long

I believe living is the best experience

I believe in not laughing at other people’s expense

I believe it’s hard to watch a lover leave

And when they’re gone all you can do is breath

I believe to always look on the bright side

I believe that life is just one big ride

I believe when I die people will grieve

But it’s ok because I believe

By Kayla Neil

2011-06-15T09:32:00.002+08:00

It has always been this sad.

Just maybe now.

I've been covered for too long.

My shield is tearing.

The inside of me is showing.

i'm reaaally tired.

2011-06-12T23:29:00.002+08:00

love has made me a fool

it set me on fire and watched as I floundered

unable to speak

except to cry out and wait for your answer

but you come around in your time

speaking of fabulous places

create an oasis

dries up as soon as you're gone

you leave me here burning

in this desert without you

I realised,

its really about what you want.

I want to be happy.

2011-06-11T23:15:00.002+08:00

You are happy.

It's great that you are.

It's what i have been wishing for.

It may not be happy my way.

But your way's fine too.

As long as you are happy.

So i guess you've found somebody.

Maybe while running or tripping.

Do give in to nothings.

and dear,

do be happy.

2011-06-10T23:42:00.002+08:00

HEY BG(:

you are special.

you are the person which i can talk to for hours

and wont get bored.

and we can communicate through face expressions(:

2011-06-07T22:38:00.001+08:00

Love.

2011-06-06T20:17:00.000+08:00

But what he don't know.

Is how hard it is to make it look so easy.

2011-06-05T22:04:00.000+08:00

I need you like a heart needs a beat.

But it's nothing new.

2011-06-03T23:35:00.002+08:00

When your mind's made up,

There's no point trying to change it.

No point trying to stop it.

It’s the scariest thing ever to realize how much someone means to you. When it hits you, I mean really hits you, all these thoughts and questions rush through your head at once. A sad emotion even starts to creep on you slowly inch by inch as you start to wonder.

What if for some reason things don’t work out? How are you possibly going to live without them?

Someone that was once a stranger now is the only person you know like the back of your hand. Someone you once had no emotions for, now has the power to break your heart. Someone you used to never hangout with, now owns most of your time. Someone that you thought you’d never love, owns your entire heart. Someone you once lived without, you now wish to hold on forever.

2011-06-02T18:29:00.001+08:00

Fate.

2011-05-31T20:43:00.002+08:00

I thought that i was strong.

hi(:

chinese was so scary.

like reallly.

and uh.

its just scary.

now's dnt mania.

HAHAHHA:D

2011-05-24T20:12:00.000+08:00

It's not hard.

2011-05-22T22:02:00.001+08:00

Study nao.